There has to be a reason!

I guess it's official, I'm being haunted... I don't know what to do about it. He has been on my mind since the last dream, it was so unexpected and strange for me. I've dwelled on it trying to figure it out. Now it's taken on a dream life of it's own.
This time we were at a military gathering not a party but not a deployment, he was there we were near the water, on the water actually. I saw him when we boarded the boat but I wasn't shaken at that time, knew he was there but it seems that I was more worried about getting my hair done...a sista has to have priorities. We just looked at each other he was standing near the railing when I passed him he smiled pushed his glasses up on his face. I smiled back and kept on stepping...as I passed him he turned towards and placed his hand on my the small of my back...he was still smiling when I turned to see who was touching me and why. He just looked and said "you've put on some weight it looks good on you" Just like that and just like him...he never moved his hand it was the softness and warmth of his hand that woke me from my dream.
Something is going on and I can't for the life of me figure it out. Why is he so close in these dreams and why does he keep touching me? I don't like it, I don't hate it, but I'm more confused now.
I'm learning to let him go and maybe my dreams are me releasing him. Maybe he's deployed again and I'm sensing a need in him, maybe I'm just a fucking nut...