Come into the light...

I went to my session with Dr. O, we again discussed my anger and ways to get through these feelings.

I stopped taking my meds because I was still angry, but it killed my sex drive and made me feel mushy...if that makes any sense.

He's saying there are certain things in my life that I have to turn my back on. I can't and I won't. This is me and I have to find a way to get back to the light.

Darkness has taken over my life. Nothing seems to matter all that much. Thank Goddess it's summer session and I'm not getting in over my head yet.

Fall session is fast approaching, I just received my acceptance letter for the fall session. I need to see the nursing school admin on Monday to set up my classes. One step closer to my BSN.

We have already decided if he gets moved to Toni Town I will stay here if I get accepted to the RN program in the spring. I'm not upset at all, I feel like this takes the pressure off. I don't HAVE to....

If I don't get into PH then I'm off to Toni Town...

I feel like the anger is eating me up inside. I'm drinking more than I have in a looong time. Eating myself into a sugar coma. I've stopped leaving the house (unless I'm shopping) and I can feel the darkness as soon as I wake up. I miss the light.