Commitment
commitment
That was the word for yesterday. The counseling session wasn't a hit for either of us, but I believe we have found a counselor that will suit us.
She asked us to commit to repairing all that is broken. We both agreed. That is step in the right direction.
Sitting in that office, I looked at him, I mean really looked at him. For the first time in all of this I saw the pain that I have caused him. The fear and uncertainty he feels about my heart and my love for him. It was a crack in him concrete wall. The one I have only been allowed to penetrate a handful of time in 13yrs. His pain is not my pain, but it's there and it's real. We are wounded, broken, and battered, but we are still together, for each other. Not for the kids, not for the money, not for the new shiny material things, but for the love of each other.
I truly hope we can heal and love wide open and free from fear.
Still taking my meds, trying not to think about the future and being medicated. Right now I need them and I can only take this process a few steps at a time. Right now.
That was the word for yesterday. The counseling session wasn't a hit for either of us, but I believe we have found a counselor that will suit us.
She asked us to commit to repairing all that is broken. We both agreed. That is step in the right direction.
Sitting in that office, I looked at him, I mean really looked at him. For the first time in all of this I saw the pain that I have caused him. The fear and uncertainty he feels about my heart and my love for him. It was a crack in him concrete wall. The one I have only been allowed to penetrate a handful of time in 13yrs. His pain is not my pain, but it's there and it's real. We are wounded, broken, and battered, but we are still together, for each other. Not for the kids, not for the money, not for the new shiny material things, but for the love of each other.
I truly hope we can heal and love wide open and free from fear.
Still taking my meds, trying not to think about the future and being medicated. Right now I need them and I can only take this process a few steps at a time. Right now.
posted by Poetry @ 7:25 AM
3 Comments:
At June 26, 2008 12:38 PM,
Anonymous said…
you have hit the nail on the head about what marriage is, pure and simple. the fact that BOTH of you were there in that office willing to start healing is a testiment to your committment to each other.
At June 26, 2008 7:01 PM,
Inmyownwords said…
This is a step in the right direction. I am so proud of you both and it will work itself out. Stick to it! You owe each other that and your committment will see you through it. Proud of you!!!! (((((HUGS)))))
At June 27, 2008 7:33 AM,
Poetry said…
I lurve both of ya'll thanx for the words of encouragement. I know this journey will be a stormy one, but I'm hopeful we will weather it and come out on the other side...joyful.
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