baby, I need you

You and only you are the only thing on my mind.

I've been fighting the tears. I need you.

I'm late and I'm scared. I need you.

it's only 2 days only 2 days only 2 days only 2 days

what have we done? I need you.

repost...He Don't Hate Me

He knows me, he knows my fears my insecurities. He understands me at my worst and loves me at my best. He knows when I'm afraid I lash out to protect me. He understands my demons and how at times I have to chase them, though I may never catch them he understands I must try. He sees my harshness and loves me in his own way the only way he can...part time. I know my life is better for having him in it. I know even when it seems he's not there...He Don't Hate Me.

Wake up!!!

There will be no making love, not now.

I'm wide awake, as he sleeps.

He is exhausted.

I just want to scream WAKE UP!

so I can fuck him again!

I'm going to let him sleep for 20 more minutes, then I'm going to suck him awake!

He can sleep tomorrow, I need him inside me now! I need his tongue on my clit later!

24 passed

I saw him through the glass rotating door. I felt my heart clench in my chest.

I ran to him, threw myself into his arms and felt relief as he pulled me close and wrapped his arms around what was left of me.

I breathed in his scent, finding home in the essence that is him.

I began to cry, a slow full moan type of cry. He held me tighter and whispered softly in my ear...

"it's okay I'm here"

He pulled me away from him and kissed me, almost 6 mths worth.

Our blessings have come full circle.

No illusions of perfections, just two people who love each other caught up in a moment where the rest of the world disappeared. We stood alone in a airport full of people.

We were again one, finding home within our hearts as we stood in the sunshine of the afternoon.

We moved towards home, to reunite our family.

I watched baby girl's eyes light up like fire as she ran to him, throwing herself upon his long legs, she stayed close to him for hours to follow.

Jah kept wondering if it were all a dream, he had dreamed of daddy coming back to him so many nights before. He snuggled up under his soul twin, the exact place he had dreamed of being.

J jumped up and down smiling and screaming, no sign of the cool teenager who had been herding his brother and sister moments before. He didn't hold back his tears. This wasn't his first or second reunion of this kind, but his emotions run raw, he gave them life through his tears.

We all set around the house falling into a familiar groove.

He's home

24...

In less than 24hrs I will be in his arms. I thought of him today and tears sprang into my eyes.

This has been a roller coaster of a life.

I'm actually nervous, but excited all at the same time.

Tilted not twisted

Now I'm not into calling him daddy, not my thing, but EVERYTHING else in this song gets me tilted. I need him to make me cry to the rhythm of this song...then start all over and do me again.

Both of his hands in my locs, me on all fours, his hips to my ass... take out your frustrations on ME!

Nessa

She died today. My mind is just wandering over the memories of her in my childhood.

Me, the little fat girl, whose head was always in a book.

Her, the fat and fabulous godmother who told me it wouldn't matter what people thought of me because I was strong and smart...a deadly combination.

Her personality would enter the room before she did. Always the largest one in the room, but also the one with the biggest heart.

I can still hear her laughter, big and bold reflecting who she was.

Educated and driven.

I can't believe she is gone. She knew me before I knew myself.

I hope you find peace Aunt Vanessa. I love you always.

The joining of two souls

Me sucking you.

This is where I want to be

You inside of me.

I'm closing my eyes

Your hands on my hips as you slide deeper into me.

I'm holding my breath

Me on the edge of everything of I've ever wanted.

My heart is racing

Your lips on my nipples.

I'm moaning your name

I feel you pulse pulse pulse as you release all of your love inside of me.

My soul is sated

I'm trying to get my mind right. So many things going on in my head, trying to put them in order to make some sense of them.

I keep hearing your voice, my name on the tip of your tongue.

You are my soul's choice. You are my mind's focus. You are the other half of me.

I know the exact moment you became a true part of me, I wonder if you felt me becoming that part of you.

Don't chase it...

ORGASM.

This word is enough to drive people quite mad.

I like orgasms, I have had them for more than half of my life.

There are more important things in the moment of sexual connections than the "O"...

The look on my man's face at that very moment that he slips into my wetness...that look in his eyes when he finally realizes that I am his in every way that is important...the fouls words that comes from his mouth as I lean forward on top of him and ride that dick because no matter what it is mine.

Let's not forget the shine that is left on his face when he's eaten that pussy like his very soul depends on devouring my creamy middle.

People can spend their lives chasing an orgasm, in doing so you miss those moments that linger long after the orgasm has cum and gone.

It's not about bringing your "A" game, it's about loving her with YOUR soul exposed.

Don't chase your woman's orgasm, if you have done your job you have left her with so much more...

For the first time in a long time, I do not want to put my faith in you.

I'm scared of you in a way that is foreign to me.

I hear your words, but they are just that.... words. Words with no backbone, words that can not stand on their own.

I wonder if this is the beginning of an ending. I don't want that, but at the moment I not sure I want you.

I want to feel safe with you. For you to be MY soft place to land. Right now I'm just out there.
Just me.

Excited!!

Today I am excited.

I got less than week and my yum yum is home. Gonna get my back blown the fuck out! YES!ohkellyclarksoneddiemurphy!

I'm taking another roadtrip with Thelma, we about to be in the wind. (hey girl!)

Spring Break starts today.... for me.

In the words of Ice Cube...Today was a good day!

In this moment I feel my weakness, the strength of my love for you.

I want to fall into your arms and tell you I love you.

Hear you say my name....Here you say my name.


Meet me here <3

Umm...excuse me.

Excuse me, yes you.

I know this may seem like a strange request but I wouldn't ask if it weren't very important.

You see I am on edge, wound tight like a brand new rubber band.

I've been working very hard as of late and my life has been very busy.

I was wondering if you would eat my pussy.

Now if you don't feel up to the job, or feel perhaps your skills are lacking I will gladly allow you to decline my offer.

Okay you seem a bit hesitant, I understand that completely.

Why don't you just start out sucking on my clit, just for a little while until we see how it's going?

Would that be alright with you?

Your cooperation and attention to detail with this matter is greatly appreciated.

Thank you.

and Today

I'm at the gym this morning getting my girl stroke on (my workout)

I'm listening to Janet's new one on my iPod. That was my first mistake.

Sweet Mercy! I needed to rip my clothes off and fuck somebody! I ain't playing ya'll, that little OLD white man next to me don't know how close he came to getting some of this sweet sweet chocolate.

SHIT!

I felt like I was on fire. With every step my clit felt like it was going to send me over the edge head first into that old man's lap.

It's gotten that bad ya'll.

I ain't counting the days, this bad ass broad is counting the hours and soon the minutes.

I'm making numerous trips to redtube.com. Giving it to myself so good I'm calling out my OWN name, but it's not good enough.

I need my back blown out, his dick between my wet lips at the back of my throat. I need to run my tongue over a pair of nicely GROOMED balls. Sucking until he moans is own submission.

My face buried HAPPILY in his lap, fullfilling my need and bringing his along on my pussy's ride.

Deep strokes on top of deeper strokes, legs on shoulders, my ass in his palms.

His hands in my locs...pulling. hard.

My breasts in his mouth, nipples tightening...mmmmmm.

On my hands and knees begging moaning needing. Struggling for breath on his down stroke.

His palms on my ass squeezing as he gives me every last inch of him. My submission.

Sweet Mercy.

I.need.that.man.

it is...

Sometimes hope is all you have to get you to the next maybe.

can we....

Another day...another chance...hope

Damn!

“It’s hard waiting around for something you know might never happen, but it is even harder to give up when it is everything you’ve ever wanted.”

These words hit me and washed over me. It just speaks to me, calls my first middle and last name. Damn.