How goes the challenge?

I'm doing well on my challenge. I have stuck to my guns. Buying only what we truly need. No new back packs this year. We have plenty from last year. Dillard's is having a sell on Coach bags!

Oh the fucking agony!

I want a couple of bags and the wallets. Funny isn't it, I have a closet full of expensive ass bags but I want more. The consumer in me is a raging piglet. More more more more! I've said no more. Gonna read Dave Ramsey book and see what else I can learn!

Day 23 and I'm surviving.

Now if I could just get my ass in the gym and stop eating donuts life would be a breeze!

Fabulous Fall 2007

He's leaving and I'm trying to hold it all together. I want him to have faith in me, like he did before my mental was all fucked up. I don't want him to worry. So I have put on my game face, but this is not a game. I need a plan. I need a schedule. I miss him already, but this is the life we have chosen. It is the life we live.

School is starting Monday. Algebra kicked my fat ass! But I'm going to fuck it up on the flip side. Still waiting to get into my program. March will bring him back to me and hopefully solidify our (my) future. I hope the board choses me.

I have scheduled my surgery for Dec. Keeping my fingers crossed that it will all work out!

Why do I love donuts....mmmmm donuts.

and today....

For all the love I have you, I still have fear. Love can make us blind to those things that are glaringly obvious when love is not present. The fear doesn't make me love you any less. It makes me more cautious how I love you. I know I can not truly protect myself. Loving you the way I have and the way I do I want to believe no protection is necessary. Protect me from you, be the you I need you to be. Don't hurt me. Again

The "what I need " challenge

I realized some time ago that I am a mass consumer. I consume items without giving it much thought.

I have decided as of 1 Aug to consume less. I am challenging myself to consume only the things that I truly need. I'm starting with 6mths and see what happens in Feb 2008. I buy for my kids I buy for the house I buy for the hubster...we don't need or usually want for anything. It's time to focus on the NEED. Right now I need 2 pairs of jeans and perhaps a bra or two. I don't need new shoes or a new school bag (found a really nice one too) I plan on consuming those things I already have and to get rid of the debt to which consuming has led.

It's been hard in the last two days, but I keep thinking to myself to find an alternate outlet.

I need to keep it all in perspective.


I will blog about my journey and see where it takes me. Feel free to join me.