breakdown

It has come to this

I'm having a break down

The more I write the worse I feel

I feel the tumbling beginning and I can't stop it

There is no terror this time it doesn't frightening me any more

I will go back on my meds tomorrow
Why do I keep doing this? I know I need them for at least six months but I have come to hate the trade off

It feels like death in small steps that is the only way I know to describe it
I love them I will not leave them my blessings

I'm having a break down