P-U-S-S-Y

Okay so that's a title that needs to be talked about. After all PUSSY rules the world right? I mean why does any man truly want power and wealth, because it gets him the PUSSY in the "prettiest" package. PUSSY has brought down many a empire, turned brother against brother. Just the sweet scent of it is enough to bring a grown man to his knees. Brings him to his knees so he can taste it devour it. Eventually a man wants to own it, to harness the power of the PUSSY. There was a time when I couldn't even say the word out loud. I didn't know it's power and I freely gave my PUSSY power away. Now I know and I keep the secret to myself. I've made grown men cry and cried for the sweetness that my PUSSY longed for. Why is PUSSY such a dirty word? Why is it so harsh to so many ears? It's beautiful bountiful! It's hidden treasures in its folds. Men seek those folds like true treasure. PUSSY!

Him Again...

I dreamt about him again last night...it was so real. I hadn't thought about him since the last time I wrote about him. It was the morning brief and he was smiling like he used to showing all of his teeth. Laughing at me like he was known to do. For some reason I needed to touch him to know he was still real. The room was full of people and his glasses were sliding down his face. I stuck my toungue out at him because he was giving me a hard time, somethings never change. I called him by his first name which only I was allowed to do. I asked him to be quiet to stop teasing, and I reached out and touched his hand. It was warm and soft and he just kept smiling, but he held onto my fingers and smiled letting me know in his own private way that he was just trying to make me smile. It worked.

The dream wasn't like last time, no frantic searching, he was right there just like I remember him. I can still feel him. The love that I felt for him is still within me he will always be a part of me. Maybe I need to accept that, probably never will. I loved him.

Just Rambling....

So I'm feeling lots better my mental is more stable and I'm smiling whenever I feel like it. I'm seeing the light at the end of this dark tunnel. BUT my meds have completely thrown me off my sex game...I'm like damn what's the point in smiling if you can't have a complete body orgasms BODYGASM! I think about sex all the time, it feels good when he's inside me, but I haven't had a "me" moment in over a month. Ain't that some shit? So Dr. D says just wait it out, and I'm thinking muthafucka I ain't cumming I need that shit! You wait it out! But then I laugh and think about the good ol' days when my nipples would pop up like tasty jelly beans and begged to be nibbled. I think of the times when I would almost slide off the bed because I was so wet. I miss the times of cumming in no time flat. Now it's just work. What's the point of getting turned on if that's all there is? GETTING TURNED ON... Thank goodness I can't get "blue balls". Oh well....starting fitness bootcamp...John is mad cause I've been backsliding on the fitness game, but I'm dropping pounds, mostly muscle I'm sure because these meds are messing with my intake. Going to talk to Dr.McB see if this can be fixed quick like.

I lost a friend this week, don't think this person was a true friend. Just someone in crisis. It's sad because I'm not all that torn up about the loss. I can't deal with weak people, I always feel it's contagious in some way. Like it's going to rub off on me. I've found there are times when being weak isn't a bad thing, but seeing it over and over again is very iritating for a chick like me.

Comments

I don't check my comments as often as I should...but for some reason I decided to scroll thru my page and take a peek at those who have decided to visit and say hello. Well you won't believe this but when you leave a comment you leave me no choice but to use your silliness or plain ignorance as fodder for my future writing...SSOOOOOOO for those of you who visit me and don't take time to read the comments I will post the ones that are well....

Anonymous said...
I am very curious how hot you are? It sounds like you may need a really good screw and you just might lightin up a bit. Can you post your picture?

Okay folks how funny is this shit? I'm an intelligent, well spoken type of chick and this person wants to know how hot I am? Okay there bubba I'm real HOT I'm real HOT that you would take time to waste my time with some drivel about fucking me! Have you not read what has been clearly conveyed here? Are your parents related? Brother and sister perhaps? Would you like to eat my pussy too? Or are you going to give your full 4 1/2 inches and loosen me up? Hey bubba I have a strict policy no licky no sticky and no punk ass anonymous bitches either...can you post YOUR pic for me?

Holla

Moving right along....