Today Girl Stroke

I couldn't stop crying.
Thank Goddess I sweat like crazy so no one could tell the difference.
I kept asking myself if this will be my lesson learned? Will I ever be able to stop being so quick to dismiss those I love?
Isn't real love about forgiveness?
My heart feels so heavy.
I wanted so badly to protect myself I closed the top on that box and told myself that it didn't matter, but it does. It matters now more than I ever wanted to admit.
Love is not about what you need or what you get, but about how you love the other person. How you see them and understand that sometime just sometimes things are done because they have to be not because someone doesn't love you. People have to love in their own way.
Not sure when I will truly learn and understand this. I wish I could stop crying, stop hurting.