Forgiveness

Where do I begin? So many emotions today. Things I've been longing to release and just put into the universe. My words today are about releasing the pain of loving... of releasing the what-ifs. I poured out my soul and let it go. Forgiveness is a powerful thing, second only to love and I felt them both today in abundance.
Love has never left me. Just made itself at home in my heart and morphed into the desire for happiness. That love found it's way back to me and for that I am so very thankful. Turning coal into beautiful diamonds. Those diamonds caught the sunlight and took my breath away. This love has shaped me, made me afraid to face the world and ready to take it on all in the same moment.
I cried for times lost. I cried for the closeness that I've often needed and had to do without. I cried for all the times I heard that voice telling me

you're stronger than you even know,

I'm crying as I type this. I missed that love, longed to make wrongs right again. Learned to love in a whole different way, not less just different. Deep inside me I feel your pain. I carry you with me. I know today what I have always known deep down, we will always be connected...within spirits of forgiveness. As you stand on the peak of that next mountain conquering demons and pain, know that love is and always has been right where you left it...within me.