Can't Explain

I'm feelin' on edge today! I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. I feel like I'm on the edge of crying and laughing. I have so many things on my mind. I can't sort them all out. I found friendship when I least expected, just dropped into my inbox and made itself at home. I guess I'm a little throwed yes throwed not thrown! Fluidity, if that's a word just trying to move with it and not against it. But it leaves me afraid of reasons...