She don't have to worry....

My girlfriend told me I should try and connect with my moms. If you've ever read what I've written about my moms you know things get pretty tense with us. P. was right you only get one mama so you gotta do what you gotta do.

That song Everyday I'm Hustlin' was written for my mama. I took P's advice and decided to call her up and invite her down...afterall it's only a 4hr drive right? AND she makes 6hr trips to visit her HS friends about every 3-4 mths right?

And it goes a lil sumthin' like this....

Hey ma when are you going to come down to visit the kids(she claims she loves and misses them so much) and see the new house...a short pause and she tells me she's trying to catch up on her bills blah blah blah...Ma I know you got some vacation time take a couple of days and I will come get you, you don't need cash $$$...she hems and haws some more...says something about bills again....I move onto another topic of convo.

A little history...

Now I swore 8yrs ago that I would NEVA...neva eva neva eva invite my moms back to my house. She came to visit me when I lived on the east coast...I was so stressed out that after I dropped her off at the airport I had to pull over on the highway to throw up and cry. That is the last time she has EVA vistited my home. You know how mamas are...they know how to push your buttons 'cause they are the ones who gave them to you.
So I tell Big Sis my feelins were hurt(which when it comes to my moms is hard to do) Big Sis jumps in her shit and tells her she needs to get her priorities straight....I wish she hadn't said shit! So that is where I am with my moms. She don't have worry about me inviting her again.

My daddy is coming to visit in May...he's 10hrs away...


I know what love is...