For right now

Finally getting my shit together. Trying to start my work study program next week, gotta interview with the state in a couple of days. I have set my degree plan and I'm ready to roll with it. Don't think moving from Whiteville is such a bad idea. Thinking of going on a road trip this weekend Big Sis will be close so I want to head that way. I really want to go to Philly in May...don't think the $$$ will fall into place in time.

I went shopping for my lil sis today, baby is due 7 Aug. That's the same day Syd was due but she took her time and came on the 17th instead(Big Sis's B-day as well!) So Big Sis being the person she is decided WE should throw her a baby shower...Humpf! So I know this may sound really hypocritical but I'm sooo disappointed in her. She saw me and my Big Sis struggle as single young moms and she just walks all thru it. I guess the same can be said of me...hmmmm. My lil sis and I don't share blood she is the daughter of the my mother's EX husband. They were together for YEARS AND YEARS so little sis is fam no matter what right? Well I have written my mom's EX off. That's the kind of chick I am. If you fucking up I'll treat your ass like a simple nigga on the street and keep steppin'...but my moms and Big Sis say she's fam....she's fam. She came from nothing, her mom is a ghetto ass hoodrat and lil sis ain't trying to do better. It's like she don't even know how to try. I ain't got nothin' against ghetto ass folks as long as you're trying to do better. So because I truly want to keep peace between my and my Big Sis I will do what is required of me. Big Sis is coming from VA so I'd look pretty shitty not going as I'm 4hrs down the highway.
My moms is taking lil sis to her appts because like I said her bio mama is a ghetto ass hoodrat.(GAH) So the cycle continues, she young black broke and about to bring a baby girl into this world. That hurts me on a level I can't even explain.