Still

It's strange how people are connected in life How you can know when someone is reaching out to you even when they aren't saying anything to you.

It's Nov. once again and I'm trying to keep my mind occupied so I don't dwell on past wrongs.

I thought of her today and wondered if a week would ever pass without me thinking of her at least once. The pain of her absence never seems to fade. It only gets worse this time of year. How do you miss someone you never met? How does someone live within you when they are long gone so long ago?

Her Daddy's birthday is this month. I wonder if he ever thinks about her, if he misses her? Is it just a mother thing?

I miss her. I miss her Daddy.

I try not to think of all the other things I have missed or the things she has missed.

Another year has passed and I still love her, she still lives within me. I still feel her spirit.

Still.