Another day in the sunshine

When I took the test yesterday I was scared to death. I watched my blood pump into that tube. I was scared. Hubster asked me if I wanted to go alone, I wanted to go alone. If my body was turning on itself I simply wanted to be the first and only person in my world to know at that moment in time. They put a rush on the results but I still had to wait 17hrs. I waited in that white gown for what seemed like forever, life seeping out of me minute after minute. I'm not dying it's not cancer it's not going to kill me. Today was my day to walk in the sunshine. Next time will I be so blessed? I thought of my children and who would teach them what it means to be a person of color in this world that wants pure whiteness? Who would teach my baby girl to be a strong black woman? Sunshine. I was not robbed today, told me to take the pills 3x per day. They will make me sick but I will take them, because today I was given another day in the sunshine.

Hotep