Without

Tonight I am feeling without. I wish I could explain it better but it is what it is. I can see the road I'm going down and it's not pretty. I told my best friend exactly where I felt I was, she laughed because I said it jokingly but I wasn't joking. Sometimes you simply have to pick a road and keep moving.
I'm tired of trying to explain myself so I won't I'll find what I need and take it. That works better for me. I hate this fucking small ass town. I need to be some where I can disappear in the crowd. I really miss the east coast. I hate this cold ass weather. It makes me cranky.
I know what I need and alternatives are always good!