Damage

He was in my dream last night. How do you love someone who isn't a part of your life? This was the strangest dream yet it wasn't even about him but me needing to talk to him needing him to be there. I can still feel him close to me. I miss him. I grabbed him and I hugged him and I whispered in his ear the damage I had done in my dream. I haven't thought about him in a while. I've tried to make peace with the loss to truly understand, but I guess a part of me will forever miss him and not fully understand how someone can love you but not be able to stand the sight of you. That hurts. Life is all about reaping and sowing.